I’ve been sitting on this list for a while now. This transition period into being not-a-student-in-school has put me in a bit of a reminiscent mood. I went through some old photos from high school, read some old journal entries, and just doused myself in not-nostalgia. I’m not pining after some ethereal past era, but neither do I look back on it with disgust. The past just is.
But that doesn’t mean that there aren’t some things that I wish hadn’t changed that much.
- I used to listen to a lot more music than I do currently. I used to actively search for new artists, to look at the entire discography of popular artists, I used to make playlists and CDs (yes, CDs) of my favorite songs, and used to try and tell a story with those songs (that mostly revolved around crushes and unrequited affection). I used to just lie around listening to music and imagine stories and scenes with the songs as the background. Now, the only time I listen to music is when it’s playing in the background while I’m working.
- I used to read a lot of fan fiction. My favorite genres were fluff, apocalyptic AUs, and angst. So much angst. I focused primarily on Harry Potter fan fiction. I used to have pages and pages of bookmarks of my favorites. I used to venture into writing my own, but I’ve lost the drafts and I never posted them anywhere.
- I used to follow drum corps competitions really closely. My favorite DCI corps is Phantom Regiment (still is; they have the best stories for their shows, in my opinion), and my favorite indoor/winter guard is the South Shore Drill Team because their tricks and techniques are incredible.
- I used to sing. To myself, mostly. But I also took voice lessons for a few months when I got it in my head in the eighth grade that I wanted to audition for American Idol. (Yes, that was a thing that I wanted.) Now, I don’t sing that much.
- I used to write poetry all the time. Every day, several times a day. I used to not care about the quality, and I used to write purely for myself. Now, I’m going through a poetry drought, and I’m trying to force myself to write more poetry more often than I have lately.
- I used to draw all the time, and some pretty fantastical things. An overstuffed armchair on the shore of some glass lake with a brilliant, multicolored sunset, under the branches of a huge tree, big enough for a house. Elves collecting water at the banks of a large river. Dragons. Female warriors with a number of different weapons. I don’t draw as often as I used to, though I do find it very calming.
- I used to go for drives. Never with my parents’ car, but with my friends. We’d hang out in parks and parking lots with the windows open, taking silly selfies before they were selfies. It doesn’t make any sense for me to own a car, mostly because I can’t justify the environmental impact of the vehicle, and because I live in New York City, but I do sometimes miss open roads.
- I used to go to the library a lot. I used to have a library card with the Waukegan Public Library, but when my fines became so great that my parents might as well have bought all the books I borrowed, they stopped taking me, and started just buying me books instead. In high school, I started going to the public library just a few streets away from my high school. The habit stopped when, as a junior, I went to the upperclassmen campus that was farther away. I used to work in NYU’s main library, but then stopped when I took the maximum number of credits students are allowed to take in one semester. Then I started going to the library just for a place to study. Now, there’s a New York Public Library branch that’s close to my apartment, and I’ll hopefully rekindle the habit.
- I used to play video games a lot. Mostly things like Animal Crossing and Phoenix Wright, with occasional forays into StarCraft and Final Fantasy. I don’t play games as often as I used to, simply because I didn’t have the time during the school year. Hopefully, I’ll be able to find some time to relax now that I’ve graduated, and I can actually play some Animal Crossing and unwind. Or something.
- I used to practice karate. I took classes through the park district in my hometown, and I took belt tests and participated in tournaments and everything. I even qualified for a national competition, though I couldn’t go because it was in Texas and I couldn’t afford it. I hope that I can return to it, now that I have more time to do things other than study and work.