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Oops, my Catholic upbringing is showing.

I just wanted to share a May the 4th graphic since I’m a very new Star Wars fan. (The first time I saw Episodes IV, V, VI, I, II, III, in that order, was about four years ago.)

And I am totally unapologetic in my enthusiasm for Rey/Finn/Poe fan fiction, or JediStormPilot. Right now, I’m eagerly anticipating updates to this series that follows my OT3 as they accidentally/on purpose start a Stormtrooper rebellion. It’s heartbreaking, heartwarming, and I am all about polyamory in fiction.

Anyway, I hope you all enjoy the day. May the 4th be with you!

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It’s the last day of April! Congrats to everyone who participated in Camp NaNoWriMo this month. It’s been a busy 30 days, and I hope everyone had a good experience. Even if you didn’t reach your goal word count, I hope that it has been a successful month in other ways!

I sometimes can’t believe that April has already passed and that May is just around the corner. While I’m glad that spring is here after such a strange winter season, I’ll admit that I’m panicking a little by how quickly the year is going by so far. I look back and realize just how much I’ve done in four months, but also feel a sort of pressure that there’s only eight months left of the calendar year. It’s a strange feeling, being torn between time passing simultaneously too quickly and very slowly.

But I had this month to really ground me. I spent some time working on this draft and I really enjoyed falling into it, and rediscovering the joy of writing. I don’t think I ever really lost it, but I have a renewed appreciation for the ability to string a few words together into sentences. I’m still a novice, but I enjoy the work, I enjoy the craft, and I look forward to continuing on the plan I’ve set up for myself.

So, happy day 30, everyone. I hope you all feel good about what you accomplished!

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The donation gifts from Camp NaNoWriMo have arrived, and I love the sticker design so much that I stuck it on the cover of my journal. This Midori Traveler’s Notebook is one of my prized possessions, and I plan on sticking with it for years to come, so this sticker will always be there as a reminder to write, to get lost in my writing, and to remember how much joy I experience whenever I do write.

It’s not really a reminder that I need all that often; writing has become so much a part of me that a day that I don’t write is a day that feels off. Sometimes, though, when the story gets away from me, and I lose sight of my original intention, of the thread of the narrative or the path of growth for a character, I can fall into some despair.

But I just need to remember the feeling of satisfaction, of accomplishment, that I feel at the end of a NaNoWriMo event. Whenever I lose sight of the end, I can look to my journal for a reminder.

Happy day 29 of Camp NaNoWriMo! There’s not much time left now, but you can do this!

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One of the first photos I uploaded to this blog.


Milestone of the day: this post is my 500th post on this blog! Hooray!

I started this blog in 2012 because… Well, because I was bored. And honestly, putting together online profiles for social media and blogging sites used to be one of my favorite methods of procrastination. Three years and five months later, I’m still going strong, and as I go back through my old blog entries, I realize just how much I’ve changed and grown, and how much I’ve really stayed the same.

One of the most obvious ways in which I have not changed is that I am still writing. In addition to this blog, I’m also keeping up my journal habit and I’m getting back into the groove of writing more creative pieces, whether that’s fiction, poetry, or even the odd personal essay. And it always surprises me just how much I write, and for how long I have been writing.

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A photo from a day where it was sunny and it rained, 2013. On Valentine Street, Sydney, Australia.

During my senior year of high school, I had a lot of trouble falling asleep, had a lot of trouble concentrating on my school work, and though on paper I seemed to be functioning just fine and even excelling in some areas, I was struggling. On a whim, I started writing in a notebook one night, inspired by Wreck This Journal and, oddly enough, by the guidelines for keeping a laboratory notebook for my Chemistry class. My original intention was to take down as many observations of my life at any given moment, hence looking to the lab notebook guidelines for inspiration. What ended up happening was I started writing anything and everything: snippets of conversations, dreams, rough drafts of homework assignments and pieces of flash fiction (though I didn’t know to call it flash fiction at the time).

And I’ve been writing ever since. But though I have my journals, that totally private space where I can let my mind wander and roam, uninhibited by self-consciousness or self-doubt, I have this blog as well. And now, this blog has become as much a part of me as my journaling, my writing.

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From the first time I ever baked bread.

I’m looking forward to the next 500 posts. And the 500 posts after that. And however many hundreds or thousands of posts I’ll create throughout the life of this blog. Maybe I’ll hold onto this blog forever, my own little corner of the internet where I gather everything I like and reflect on how times are changing, and I’ll look back at the end and laugh at my youthful self. Maybe I’ll end this blog when I move onto whatever the next era of my life is, abandoning it until it becomes an ancient ruin, a ghost of a past life.

Whatever happens next, I’m still blogging now.

So here’s to writing 500 posts, and to 500 more,

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Thanks for reading and growing with me!

I spent much of the afternoon deep-cleaning my apartment, and I’m particularly proud of my now spotless. The cleanliness will come in handy when I start editing my Camp NaNoWriMo novella, and it’s perfect for getting into the mindset of seeing this project with new eyes. (But, knowing me, it may not stay this tidy for very long…)

I’m not usually one to be picky about my writing environment. As long as I have a reasonable amount of privacy and the area is generally tidy, I’ve trained myself to be comfortable with writing anywhere and everywhere. Still, it’s nice to have a home base, to have a corner that’s always there, ready for me to sit down and fall into writing.

I really need to learn how to keep my desk clean. If not for the writing space, at least for the aesthetic.

Happy day 27, campers! April camp is close to being over!

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Yesterday, I met up with some friends to have dinner and dessert in the Lower East Side. I feel like the Lower East Side is one of the few areas in the city that I haven’t really explored, and there are some amazing restaurants and hidden areas that piqued my interest. Of the neighborhoods that I’ve visited throughout my time in New York, the ones in the southern part of Manhattan are consistently my favorite.

Every year I feel the need to reacquaint myself with the city, because sometimes I forget that I really live here, and I need to take some time to sink back into this place. It feels like I had a huge growth spurt and I need to take a moment to realign my mind with my body. Getting out to the Lower East Side last night was a good start to the process.

And I love being in areas of New York that are explored in books. I read The Golem and the Jinni by Helene Wecker earlier this year, and it has such vivid descriptions of New York that I felt the urge to follow the same routes that the characters walked. Though the areas have changed since the 1899, which is when the book is set, I felt a new appreciation for the locations mentioned as we walked through the older parts of the city. New York has such a rich literary history and tradition, and I don’t think I’ve ever really appreciated that until very recently.

So this is what I’ll be doing for the rest of the week. Getting to know New York again, through shared meals and easy walks.

Happy day 26 of Camp! Hang in there, campers!

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I woke this morning and exercised. I went for a little longer than usual because I have this week off, and it felt good to deviate a little from the usual routine. Then, for the rest of the morning, I proceeded to journal and write about this month’s Camp NaNoWriMo, how I’m going to go about revising, the next projects I want to tackle, and how I’m going to keep the NaNo spirit alive throughout the year.

Because that last item is the hardest part for me. I feel this incredible rush of motivation to write a story during the month, but once the month is over, it’s incredibly difficult for me to keep it going. The hope is that as I revise this novella and keep working on until it reaches a stage where I can share it, so I’ll be able to keep up the NaNo spirit that way. But what about the rest of the year? And the years after that?

To keep this potential anxiety spiral at bay, I plan. I have plans for my July Camp NaNo project and November’s NaNoWriMo. I have a tentative revision plan for the months in between. And the hope is that, as long as I continue to push myself to create, I’ll continue to have ideas to explore and stories to tell.

It’s not an option to believe otherwise.

Happy day 25, campers! The month is almost through! You can do it!

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I am proud to say that I’ve finished the first draft of this novella at about 38,000 words, and so I have officially won this month of Camp NaNoWriMo!

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I was honestly so tempted to not finish today. It’s Sunday, and I’ve taken the week off for a much-needed staycation, and so I figured that I would be able to take my time to reach the end. On top of this, my computer was running into some problems (I do really need to replace it), and so I was ready to call it a day and try again tomorrow.

But, I pushed past this, fired up my tablet, which I hardly ever keep charged, and powered through the last 2,000 words I needed and verified my word count.

So now, I’ll be taking the last week of April to relax and not think about this story at all, and then I’ll pick up editing it throughout the months of May and June. As of right now, I’m planning on participating in Camp again in July, and we’ll see if I’ll be taking up a new project or continuing to work on this story during that month as well.

Happy day 24, campers! The month is almost over, but you can do this! Keep on writing!

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I had another one of those ridiculously busy Saturdays where I was out of the apartment for most of the day and then needed a nap until dinnertime.

So I haven’t written anything for my Camp NaNoWriMo novel yet today. And I’m thinking that maybe today I won’t actually write.

There’s not much else to say except that I am glad that I’ve reached my word count, and now I just need to finish the draft of this story. I just hope that I don’t end up putting it off so much that I end up not finishing by the end of the month. That would just be too disappointing.

Happy day 23, campers! Hope you all are doing alright.

As of this post going up, my word count has officially passed my goal for the month! I haven’t yet verified it, but I’ve vowed to myself that I won’t do that until I actually finish the story. (Which, if everything goes according to plan, still needs about 1700 words.)

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I’m so glad that the end is truly in sight now. For a while I’ve been feeling quite rundown, and April turned out to be a much busier month than I had anticipated. I was trying to do so much that I felt like I couldn’t actually accomplish this, that I would fail to reach 35,000 words somehow, and I would have to recover from that disappointment.

But no, I have, for all intents and purposes, made it through, and now there’s just about 1700 words of wrap-up left before I can call this draft done.

Being nearly done comes at a funny time; I’ve used a few of my vacation days to take next week off because I am in desperate need of a vacation (even a staycation), and it would have been the perfect time to work on this project. But no, I had to go and finish early, which means that I’ll have to fill my days with something else to do other than writing.

It’s a blessing, really. I love writing, and I’m sure that by the end of the week I’ll miss it terribly. But I need to get some variety in my life. I need to get my head out of my notebooks an computer screen for a while and breathe in the spring air.

Regardless, I’m not done yet. I have 1700 words left to go, and I’ll be blogging through the rest of the month.

And then, comes revision.

Happy day 22, campers! Hope you all are hanging in there!

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